Why do I Feel Sad?

Why do I feel sad?
This is a holy month. I suppose to be closer to Allah.
But, why do I feel sad?
There must be something wrong with me.
I feel so empty.
I feel that Allah is so far from me.
Allah, please forgive my sins.

I know it is not a right thing to think the others except You.
But, I feel that I can't handle my feeling.
It's not because I can't, but I don't want.
I know it is wrong, so maybe this is a sin.
Allah, my Lord, please give me strength to face it.

I always tell my friend to be close to You, but now it is me who is far from You.
Sometimes I feel that I am so miserable.
Sometimes I just want to die, but it is a big sin.
My sins have been to much.
I am to scare of Your hell, Your anger.
Like all other muslims, I want to meet You either.